I had to lay it all down again today. Not being able to control the situation with C's skin has been making me more anxious and worried than I need to be. Everything I'm doing is making it worse. Today we learned about surrendering, not speaking, just surrendering. I felt God asking me again, "Don't you trust me with this?" All I could think about during service today was C scratching her legs in the car this morning, saying, "Ouchie. Ouch!" It's killing me.
My kids are not my own - they belong to the Creator. I want to trust Him. But it's so hard. I want to control everything and know everything so badly. But I am not God. So I surrender this into His hands, I lay it down. And I pray for peace in my own mind and heart.
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